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| I used to think a lot...
But now I really do not know what I am thinking or feeling...
I used to think that I knew what I want
But now I realised I don't
I used to think that I was caring
But now I know I am not
I used to think that everything will fall in place in time
But now I don't think it can
I used to think that this was it
But now I know, this is it... (or am I wrong?)
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| Recently I have been reminiscing a lot on my Sec, JC and Uni days... Thinking back about the times when everything seems so simple, where life seems to just fall in place easily without much effort... well I guess that will therefore have let to me being someone whom have not exceptional grades or outstanding credentials... but at least I was above average a bit la.. 
Anyways, those were the times which I felt really happy and adequate.. Family life, friends, grades, abilities and all were just so perfect... what's there not to be happy about? I guess I was just simple minded.. haha living each day in bliss and not thinking much about the future...
Right now plunged into the working life, I am glad that work and environment now is really cool.. working hours, job scope, colleagues, boss are all so good. I really look forward to going to work.. really thankful that this much needed break has arrived, yet able to earn some pocket cash at the same time. 
However, somehow I feel that this great and cool working place has led to me being quite slack...
Slack in terms that I am so comfy going home at early hours and then start wasting my time in front of telly or surfing the net. I haven't read a book in ages or so I think! haha kinda feel quite tao nao kang kang again. Guess its just my personality to keep on wanna know more and stuff..
Will a challenging job suit more to what I need and want? Will I really be able to handle it? A challenging job scope with demanding boss and competitive environment.. Self doubt seeps in at times... Yet a rebellious voice in my head tells me that I believe I am the sort whom if given a challenging job will rise to the occasion and excel... 
I just hope that my body won't act up against me and give me stress signals and all when I am determined to do my best.. I really hope I can get in such a job which gets me all excited and jump out of bed all ready to start work in the morning! A day of adventure everyday... 
Now I just need to know what type of adventure I want, I need to get into the playground first before any adventure can start... and thus another chapter of my life will start again... Next level in the game... the game of life... this time with the experience from finishing the previous levels in my life... time to get to some bonus level liao!!! Wish me luck!~ 
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| Recently, I came across a couple of people aged ard early twenties who do not really like to eat meat.
Their reason for that is that they are lazy to peel the fat off the chicken or other meat. One mentioned that she does not like eating satay too, for the fact that it is difficult to differentiate the fats from the meat.
All of the 3 mentioned are gals. :)
All 3 has so turned their meals into more vegetarian ones.
This just leads me to think whether the younger generation now are more health-conscious or maybe its just a small co-incidence.
Just quite an interesting fact is that they do not mind eating meat, just that most of the time, they prefer not to.
And also, they aren't particularly thin la.
Haha I think I am just amused by suddenly finding 3 of such persons in the same period of time. 
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| These past 2 years have been a great learning period with lotsa excitement and learning.
It has brought me many insights and different perspective.
It has made me trust myself a lot more than when I was a freshie.
It has really laid a good ground for my future to be built on.
This short journey has inspired yet overstretched me in some ways.
Even though I am glad and am not at all regretful of really putting in all my effort in it, I just feel its time for a break.
And I have just embarked on a break, on my new job!
I enjoy my job now. Haha its like taking a break yet still learning more.
Its interesting to be in a culture which promotes leading a healthy balance life pace.
Where work should be the one which needs to be constructed to suit your needs, instead of the stereotyped business culture where bosses will say, "Don't ask what the company can do for you, ask what you can do for the company!"
I truely feel that as we have "One life to live it" quoting from one of my gf's blog, should make work, work for us, instead of us trying to fit into a certain work type.
I have heard so many complaints from friends about work, about how they are tired and overspent.
We, who have other priorities in life in different stages should be able to make work fit our lifestyle, or the life we want to lead. In this way, we will be able to much better plan our lives for ourselves and people around us.
Through this job, I have also met some interesting younger crowd. Haha, after 3.5 yrs of working, after trying to fit in to the older crowd always, I kinda feel that I am old also. It's even weird to hear the younger crowd keep mentioning to me that, "Hey, you aren't that old mah!" I must have made some comment that made me sound like I am so. Haha, I guess I should feel happy about their comment right?
Anyway, right now I am in the transition period. To energise myself and live my life with passion once again!
Once again, it's not hard to imagine...
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